for the second time around

I've been regretting my life as a seminarian for my whole stay in the seminary. practically for so many reasons.
the food , animalistic classmates, the tyrant teachers and the freedom sucking schedule. I told myself that i have made a mistake choosing to enter the minor seminary. i kept on telling my self that this is the first time that i have committed one of the biggest mistake in my life and the first ever major wrong descision. i'm not saying that it is hell staying in the seminary but all i want to say is that it is how i think then. a very young boy, well pampered in the family. what is the worst thing that can happen than being locked up in a seminary ang loosing almost half the weight that i have gain in my whole life?! yes, i have regreted it before i see how big have i grown since entering the minor seminary. i'm big now because of the mistake that i have commited. and now i just fill so small again and ready to commit the same mistake again. will i enter the major seminary? maybe it is a bigger version of the torture house i came from. but without entertaining any second thought i entered the major seminary and wrote an aplication letter saying that i have come there to voluntary apply for the formation. ouch! i have commited again a mistake hoping that it will bring me to growth and betterment. for the second time arround

sorry for the spelling flaws ha... not really good in spelling